獨舞

前幾天醒來, 想編支獨舞。 意思是想親身到排練室研究, 用自己的身體作前綫。

這幾年有了自己的班底, 是一件非常難得的事。 從事劇場最高興是可以和一班老友癲癲傻傻, 經歷一些非凡的日子。但我同時醒覺到創作上越多人, 越多元素, 可變成一個自我逃避的方法, 詩歌的演出不知道怎樣? 快快找老友衍仁幫手!

但創作的源頭應該是由最簡單, 最核心的地方開始。
很記得我第一次編獨舞, 卡着,就想到: 唔, 我可以試用燈光, 和自己的影子交該. 那時的老師(Sally Hess)對我說不行 —— 你不可依賴外在的因素,而不向內追尋, 請用自己的身體找方法吧!

最簡單, 最核心, 也是最難。



獨舞的過程, 就是獨處的認識。

零三年第一次編獨舞, 十分無知。 只知道是大學副修舞蹈的要求, 所以在排練室閉關. 那時正在波蘭留學, 那兒的冬天冷得要命. 從屋子踏單車到劇場只需十分鐘車程, 但已足夠把我兩眼凍僵. 到了排練室, 都不知道怎樣開始。 只知道一個原則: 無論如何, 每天都要嚴守到 studio的習慣;最少要在那裏逗留一個半小時. 周可凡,我不理會你在排練室幹什麼. 你躺在地上睡覺也可以。但最少要起牀, 爬到排練室去!

起初不習慣獨個兒,九十分鐘是一段漫長的。有時候真的像坐牢或者等放學,不知道怎樣過才好。但說也奇怪…在地上躺得多, 會悶得想做點事,想跳舞!


七年後, 學會少少創作上的紀律, 但仍然是赤手空拳入排練室,不知怎樣編一支獨舞。只有再次認識自己的念頭和誠意。

近日很多事物都感到很新鮮。聽音樂時, 發現自己的喜向好像轉了。聽我兩年前喜愛的歌, 有點像翻讀一些舊情書一樣: 有感覺,但不大了解。昨天在火車突然想下筆素描我對面的女人, 這是我很多年來沒有特別想做的事。唔.. 春天來了, 不知道會帶來什麼?



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Wander: A Human Landscape 遊蕩於人生風景

Duet between Wai-yin and Hofan. Wander, A Human Landscape. Choreographed by Rachel Freeman.

A group of us were walking back from dinner to rehearsal near Nam Cheong, when I asked Rachel (our director for the inclusive dance project between Symbiotic Dance and Blue-Eyed Soul Dance Company) how she found the city.

Rachel had to think about it. “Well, I find Hong Kong to be a very tolerant place.”

“What do you mean?” I asked. Tolerance and generosity are not really the first things that comes to mind when I think of our bustling metropolis. But then, Hong Kong is home. It can be a bit hard to tell from the inside. 旁觀者清, 當局者迷.

“Well, for example, just now at the restaurant [and we were with 國華, a wheelchair buddy], they were happy to set a table outdoors for us. In England they might have thought it to be a lot of hassle, made a lot of fuss.”

Much later, when I was struggling over the two lines of reflection I had to hand in for the program notes when things finally clicked into place. The world is our mirror: Rachel finds Hong Kong to be a friendly place because she is a generous person with a wide-open heart. And when I say wide-open, I mean flood-gate wide. It’s a sort of life-force that sweeps aside all jet-lag, embraces the struggle of working in a different language, and says yes, yes, YES!

Looking back, it’s pretty incredible to realise what the group has managed to achieve in a period of twelve days. It makes me realise how if the director is clear about what she is doing, and is backed up by a solid team (Arnim + Tids)…. kapow! Anything is possible.

“For this jump to work,” says Rachel to Vinci, “You have to fly past Maru. If you imagine jumping into Maru’s arms, you’re going to be heavy. But if you go past Maru, you’ll be much lighter.” She demonstrates, slamming into 丸仔, who catches her in a spin.

Watching them at work, I realize that this actually can be a much more general principle. If I’d stopped – as I did the first couple of days – to consider how I should be pacing myself: yesterday’s rehearsal, today’s tai chi with 師傅, back to rehearsal, teaching, parent-teacher conferences; rehearsal for (No)rwegian Wood, a school tour performance, not to mention the ongoing 高鐵 protest… I would be exhausted. (Actually, looking at the list, I have every right to be exhausted.)

But the trick is to let all of that go. Prepare well, stay present, and embrace the company of people you are working with. Let that give you energy.

This was particularly easy with this ensemble, because we had people who was so direct with their affections. Wai Yin would grasp my hand and touch it to their cheek; 蘇 will clutch at me in his strong hands and not let me go to dinner. May will whisper (at two words a minute), “Can you help me get my bag?”… and then give us souvenirs of pottery and Chinese knots that she has made with her feet…

This project brought out many beautiful things in all of us. For myself, it was a wonderful combination of things I love doing: assistant teaching, listening, dancing.


Wander, a Human LandscapeWander, a Human LandscapeWander, a Human Landscape. Hofan and Wai Yin duetWander, a Human Landscape
Photos by Arnim Friess.
> Read another review of the show here - 共容是共生,共融則是你強我弱的權力遊戲

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